...........RAZI..........

Hey long time havent wrote in this... well its been a while know... hmm im facing the hardest time in my life... Well maybe you all cant see it cuz i always keep smiling no matter what happen... I just dont want think much bout this. I have to move on though. But then I saw everyone already have seen a glimpse of their future while im sitting here do nothing and cant clearly where i want to go.. hmm its not good at all. seriously... Well not everything happened around me are bad.I already passed my driver license.I get a pen pal from England.. yeah she's from england.. lol. Frankly speaking i do feel my english bad. But she's just understand it.,which i know i can get her confuse sometimes... but nah i just dont care.. keep talking until i can get it right..
hmm next thursday im gonna get my license. Still thinking where i wanna go.. besides i cant go far.. my dad wont allow me.. :(.. I cant wait to go to uni for my degree.. im gonna take some revenge though.. Im going to nail this one.. Im so not going to let this one go if i have the 2nd chance..I cant wait to get myself into business... cuz somehow if i keep myself busy i wont remember bout it. Yes im feeling regret... but still i believe there's must be something behind all this thing that Allah has decided for me.. :) well thats all i guess.. Razi please make yourself better person.. you are getting worse day by day... Assalamualaikum...

well ive made new intention for this year.. but unfortunately it's not going so well. uhh need a really strong heart to do that.. well its not that tough.. it depends on yourself.. hmm by the way.. there is one attitude that i cant get off from me.Which is im proscatinating + take granted of all things happen around me.. I need a really good self motivation..hmmm come on.. its not that hard.. you may take only 5 or 10 at most to do that...and + ive done something wrong. Really wrong.. and i did that almost everyday... and my result will be out on 24th jan... -__-' O'Allah the almighty please give me your forgiveness.. amin..

I keep wondering why I love to hurt myself I don't have to do that.Shut up and forget the past.You have to think for future.A lot of things need to be done and to think about.Tomorrow i have my license test and still i didn't sleep yet.It's already 2.45 a.m.Seriously I need to sleep.=) hmm and I kept think of this thing for a long time ago.If this world would have a machine that can delete the unwanted memories I might be the first person volunteering to be the guinea pig.There's so much unnecessary memories in my brain.Hmm well it wouldn't be happen.=) Maybe whacking squash ball on the wall would reduce this feeling.Man I feel so bad with it.. Maybe I can make people laugh while they sad.But I hardly make myself laugh.It's an odd attitude though.Ok I think thats all for this morning.=) Good luck for myself and CHILL laaa... =).

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So I hopped on a train three in the afternoon
I don't know when I'm coming back, but I hope that it's soon
See, I never thought (I never though)
That I'd have to leave your side (your side)

It's only physically but know that you will be on my mind
Twenty-four hours at a time
Cause in my eyes, you were mine (you were mine)

No matter where you go, I won't be very far
Cause in my head I'll be right there where you are
Cause love has no distance baby
Love, love has no distance baby
No, not when it comes to you and me

See, she wrote me a letter, said the weather wasn't better
But she said that she was doing fine
"I want to see you face to face", that's what she wrote to me that day
And I knew that it was all a sign
So I wrote back with a song, promised it won't be too long
Wanna make up for all our lost time
Cause in my eyes, you were mine (you were mine)

No matter where you go, I won't be very far
Cause in my head I'll be right there where you are
Cause love has no distance baby
Love, love has no distance baby
No, not when it comes to you and me

So I'm going through these boxes, my life's gone off track
It's been three years, she hasn't written back
But in my eyes, she's still mine
And I know it sounds so stupid to be waiting this long
But I'm still in love, and I know I'm not wrong
Cause in my eyes, she was mine

No matter where you go, I won't be very far
Cause in my head I'll be right there where you are
Cause love has no distance baby
Love, love has no distance baby
No, not when it comes to you and
No matter where you go, I won't be very far
Cause in my head I'll be right there where you are
Cause love has no distance baby
Love, love has no distance baby, no
Not when it comes to you and me

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hmmm there's so many things happen to me lately....quarelling with my gf....and then i lost my couple ring....arghh!!!! and my papers are just next wednesday....come on....what's wrong with me...gah....emmm i hope i will find it back...maybe....hmmm and then my gf sulking....cuz we had bad quarrel last nite and today i lost the ring..yey! nice..just in time...huhhhh....i dont want to think much about it cuz my exam only left for a few days...hmm Ya Allah please help me....open my heart....and cleanse my heart from evilness.....please.....

Im really really really feeling down rite now...im confused wheather ive to repeat those paper or not...and it'll cost me 550 gah...but still ive to be grateful what im received rite now...maybe its just another test to me from Allah..its ok..be strong....and lets move on...i hope i wont have to repeat it again..but still......ahhh...help me...: (