...........RAZI..........

Hey long time havent wrote in this... well its been a while know... hmm im facing the hardest time in my life... Well maybe you all cant see it cuz i always keep smiling no matter what happen... I just dont want think much bout this. I have to move on though. But then I saw everyone already have seen a glimpse of their future while im sitting here do nothing and cant clearly where i want to go.. hmm its not good at all. seriously... Well not everything happened around me are bad.I already passed my driver license.I get a pen pal from England.. yeah she's from england.. lol. Frankly speaking i do feel my english bad. But she's just understand it.,which i know i can get her confuse sometimes... but nah i just dont care.. keep talking until i can get it right..
hmm next thursday im gonna get my license. Still thinking where i wanna go.. besides i cant go far.. my dad wont allow me.. :(.. I cant wait to go to uni for my degree.. im gonna take some revenge though.. Im going to nail this one.. Im so not going to let this one go if i have the 2nd chance..I cant wait to get myself into business... cuz somehow if i keep myself busy i wont remember bout it. Yes im feeling regret... but still i believe there's must be something behind all this thing that Allah has decided for me.. :) well thats all i guess.. Razi please make yourself better person.. you are getting worse day by day... Assalamualaikum...

well ive made new intention for this year.. but unfortunately it's not going so well. uhh need a really strong heart to do that.. well its not that tough.. it depends on yourself.. hmm by the way.. there is one attitude that i cant get off from me.Which is im proscatinating + take granted of all things happen around me.. I need a really good self motivation..hmmm come on.. its not that hard.. you may take only 5 or 10 at most to do that...and + ive done something wrong. Really wrong.. and i did that almost everyday... and my result will be out on 24th jan... -__-' O'Allah the almighty please give me your forgiveness.. amin..

I keep wondering why I love to hurt myself I don't have to do that.Shut up and forget the past.You have to think for future.A lot of things need to be done and to think about.Tomorrow i have my license test and still i didn't sleep yet.It's already 2.45 a.m.Seriously I need to sleep.=) hmm and I kept think of this thing for a long time ago.If this world would have a machine that can delete the unwanted memories I might be the first person volunteering to be the guinea pig.There's so much unnecessary memories in my brain.Hmm well it wouldn't be happen.=) Maybe whacking squash ball on the wall would reduce this feeling.Man I feel so bad with it.. Maybe I can make people laugh while they sad.But I hardly make myself laugh.It's an odd attitude though.Ok I think thats all for this morning.=) Good luck for myself and CHILL laaa... =).